Birthdays & Squishing of Dreams

I so very, very angry & hurt. I was just told to give up my dreams, that they just weren't working out right now. That if you find something you're good at & enjoy you should be able to breeze through it easily. School just isn't for me, etc. It was the one thing I could count on, them believing I could do it. Because damn if a lot of places didn't seem to want me. She suggested sales, that not everywhere is the same, that not everywhere there's a push to sell something. I don't know of a single place like that. I'm, very, very, very, very hurt by all this. Of course it's Cal's birthday, when I'm supposed to be happy & planning (granted last minute) his birthday outing if his parents do nothing. Instead all I can think about doing is driving, anywhere, just....away from here.

Sleep Dep & Derogatory Terms

I had problems sleeping...again...I get sorta manic, where I have ENERGY TO BURN. Which is usually awesome I can get stuff done while people are sleeping & all that, but my pop had knee surgery so my mom needs to sleep nearby but can't be in the bed with him (he sorta sleeps diagonal now). So...my room is her room for the next several weeks, & I have the family room. Which does *not* have my jewelry supplies, my printer, my books, or the capability for me to clean my room through it. So...I'm sorta stuck watching bad infomercials, how to vids (been makeup lately since I'm trying to practice it a bit more), veoh, books. Not so productive. Can't bake or cook either because the doors are left open. The good thing is (I suppose at least) I finished watching Princess Tutu. I know, completely girlie sounding. Started out moderately girlie, but actually got less & less as it went on. I really did enjoy it, it was recommended to me & then a fan vid was shown to me & I HAD to watch. Yeah...it has ballet, yeah, it has overly cute drawings. But definitely a more complex piece than I was expecting. Always an excellent thing.

Downside, I finally got to bed around 5 something, & was woken up around 9 by my pop. Mom's vertigo is acting up so I'm in charge of taking care of both of them. Not too hard, only problem was when pop called repeatedly right in the middle of a yoga pose after I'd already asked to be left alone for that hour. Blargle... It's appearing I'll also be making dinner, which will most likely be spinach pasta with garlic crusted chicken. Yum.

This was my 4th day on the Wii Fit, my legs & arms kind of ache continually at this point, not a bad thing. But the Wii is seriously on something. It decided I gained 15 pounds overnight. While I do not pride myself on eating well (I am getting better) my intake of food was not enough to raise it that high.

When I got back from that though a lively conversation on derogatory terms came about, & do the words lose meaning with more use in a non derogatory way, as in it gaining a new meaning? Or does it just wear away the meaning until it gets worn smooth to just being acceptable regardless of the fact that it's a derogatory term. We were discussing more social and not racial terms. Ie. gay, meaning homosexual, happy, stupid or fag where here it's offensive (pointed out it isn't used here as anything *but* derogatory, so would that mean with use it would lose it's meaning?) & in Britain it's a slang for a cigarette. I must say it's fun to have these random brain quandry conversations. Doubt our opinions will change all that much, but is still something to go Hmmmm, interesting, must ponder. I do believe it will soon be migrating into swear words & their double meanings/origins. Hee, hee! Like I said, fun for the not so whole family!

I really should make the belt decoration for Horo today, was going to yesterday, but never got around to doing so. I only have a little more then 4 months. Would like to be done in 2 months so there's less pressure last minute. But, I'm a classic procrastinator. So...we'll see. Sure hope I get off my ass & do them though. Would be 1 piece on it's way to being done.

Wii Fit Plus Oddness

So, I got for Christmas the Wii Fit Plus, I have the original too, but when my wii got sick & then retarded, my stuff got packed away. Since my mum knew pop was having knee surgery she got him a new wii to play while he recovered with some games (which he has been playing the Mario one occasionally). But I got the Wii Fit with hopes I'd be able to borrow pop's system. Well...I did today. I got it all set up around 3:32, & at 5:43 I called it quits. I did not know I had been working at it so long! It weirds me out! I'm kinda proud of myself regardless. I did sweat, not the EEEWWWW kind, but still proof I worked hard!

Let's see if I remember what I did....

Side twist
Skateboarding
Snowboarding x2
Hulu hoop
Number game
Cobra
Plank
Running
Biking x2
Obstacle course
Penguin game
Thingy where you pick your knee up with "punching" with your other one
Boxing (that one was fun, that's going on the everytime list)
Kung Fu
Marching band thingy
Meditation

There might have been more, but I think that was all of it. Granted they were short (roughly 30 seconds - 5 minutes) but still! I earned 46 credits on the thing before quitting.

Now I'm off to watch How To Videos on makeup on YouTube by MichellePhan as a reward.

Ta Da!

I haven't had a blog in years, & when I did have one I didn't post in it much. Not sure how often I'll post here, but I plan to post at least once a week. Perhaps it'll be adventures of the week, it might be a random writing exercise, or a recipe. Really, it'll be chaotic as to what I post.

Thing might be a bit tame for the moment, except for the random rantings about being stuck. My pop just had knee surgery & while it isn't a pain in the butt, it's a bit annoying just in that he can't move by himself & needs someone hanging about 24/7. I'm not so fond of being around 24/7.

On, the YEAH side though, I bought my pass for Fanime & reserved my hotel room. Woo hoo! I'm uber excited. I'm going to CosPlay for the first time in my life (I blame Jenna, the insidious her) as Horo from Spice & Wolf. I got all the fabric & notions I need to make her outfit, but I couldn't find fur, so Jenna is looking for some. That & making me my ears. Now I just need to watch the shoes I need to buy & order my wig! It's coming together! YEAH!!! I'll keep everyone updated with my giddiness on how it progresses.

This Sunday is Cal's birthday, as per tradition my parents are hosting a dinner for him, it'll most likely be the Saturday after his birthday, which should be kinda fun. I have no idea what to get him, but I'll think of something, I almost always do! Now if I could get him to settle long enough with mum around to measure his head so I can start working on making his hat (again....it was the wrong size, but it fit my baby cousin, so I suppose that's good).

In lines with Cal's birthday, the day after it is the date when his & my swing shoes show up. His look like these cool sneakers and mine are adorable saddle shoe flats. Then I'll have to wear them around the house to break them in before that Friday, as our first swing dance lesson is then. I'm so excited! It's a workout & it's a blast! I used to swing ages & ages ago (Like almost 10 years ago, ages ago) & I really enjoyed it. The classes were affordable & included entrance to the club it's held at, so bonus! It also appears that we may have a large group coming with us. Which I have mixed feelings on. I had originally thought of it as being just our date night & something fun for us to do together, but at the same time, it's a lot of fun going with a group & having the ability to switch partners without the Eek! I don't know you! going on. Plus it'll be more people to kick your butt to go (though I doubt I'll need kicking, I want to start already!).

Beyond that, I'm reading Will of the Empress by Tamora Pierce, which is part of the Circle of Magic, Circle Unbound, etc. Beyond that I'm trying to slowly work on my Project Zero, which I should post on here as well. Perhaps that will be my next post.